MiladyPhoenix

My life is a Jerry Springer episode and I Want Out!! Where to start! Home Life My oldest sister married "the pizza boy" who cannot hold down a job because he talks big and then sits on his arse waiting for the world to hand him everything he has ever dreamed of on a silver platter. My twin sister has been yakking about her Big White Wedding for almost 2 years now, her BWW to another woman! My mother who came out of the closet to me, is now absentee as she is spending every weekend at her Girlfriend's place, leaving after work on Friday and only getting home Tuesday evening. I am still emotionally dependant on my Ex BF of 8 years, who I

This shell wants no spirit. This shell cannot rest, the heart will not slow, the breathing is too shallow and the mind will not be QUIET. This shell wants no spirit. A spirit can be restless, confused, frustrated and overwhelmed. This shell wants no spirit as the spirit has no release: no pain, pleasure, music, silence, movement, stillness can release the tension of the spirit on this shell. This shell wants no spirit, as it is just too damn tired to maintain it any longer.

The first is a stabbing knife in the chest, I am paralyzed as it twists and burns inside my body. The pain is pure and excruciating; I have never known another pain like it. I want to savor the burning of that blade but I cannot think at all, I cannot comprehend anything. I can hear my voice stammer and stutter it’s an alien sound even to my own ears. The part of my brain that cannot be silenced orders me to snap out of it, logical, stern and a part of myself. I cannot obey my voice; I am trapped and frozen by the burning agony in my chest. But that is past and now I have other companions. Shaking skitters through my frame as though I w